How do I deal with this horrible heartache?..?

god dammit man if u feel this way about her! hell u better tell her no matter wat! and i just cant believe how long a guy like u held that in! :D u HAVE 2 tell her... and if that means wen she breaks up wit her bf than so be it. damn man u got a way longer history with her than that bastard.... just do it amico mio... for love!!! :)