What exactly do you think this means?

I have clicked on a lot of things about how peoples lives are all messed up because their dad was a drunk or an alchoholic and abused them. As far as I know my dad did not abuse me he hit me as discipline as the world calls it and that's about all I remember from my childhood. I also remember being put down a lot by both parents and i talked to my friends and they said their moms flipped them off when they were nine and swore and threw things at them often too. But now I think I have Social anxiety and I'm tired of dealing with it everyday mainly just my head shakes when i talk to people and i can never let anyone put make up on me because then it will smear all over. My teachers are noticing it too. I also have a fear of walking in front of people am i traumatised or something?